to how i've been feeling the past few days.
premièrement: i recently turned seventeen years old. (: and i can not thank you enough to the people here who sent me birthday wishes. made me feel all warm inside :}. i don't feel that much different from sixteen, but it's amusing terrifying my mother; telling her that now i can see rated r movies by myself, being a year over than the legal age of consent, showing her random car magazines... ^^. (and she takes it so well hahahaha)
i loved all of the presents i got that day; a flat screen TV (i've ALWAYS wanted a tv in me room, ever since i was like, five, and my parents never let me until now), an ice cream maker from my awesome cousins, and a lot of money for my upcoming trip to paris and barcelona in april. (i'm not sure if i've mentioned this in a previous journal. if i didn't, well, I'M GOING TO PARIS AND BARCELONA IN APRIL AND I CAN BARELY CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT.) i'm going for ten days with a few of my adelphi french and spanish classmates. i've always wanted to go to paris ever since i first watched the hunchback of notre dame movie. the trip costs a painful $3,000; and i have the best parents in the world that are helping me fundraise and do whatever else they can to put me on that plane in eight months.
deuxièmement: summer is starting to fade. my summer job ended, and, to be honest, it wasn't what i expected it to be. though i had fun and made a lot of money, i didn't feel accepted there. i didn't feel included amoung the people i worked with, no matter how much i talked to my cousins or the parties i went to. and because of the hours i worked, i rarely got to hang out with my friends. the entire month of july i only saw...maybe 4 of my closest friends? if that? i don't even know haha. plus; i have a horrendous tan line of a circle on my back.
troisièmement: as far as my photography goes...well, i'm still uninspired and dissapointed with my work. it's so important to me, and i hate when whatever picture i take looks terrible through my eyes. i have some recent pictures of my trip into the city on my tumblr, but i don't feel they're all too great :/. i wish i didn't have such a low self esteem, i would love to believe the compliments people give me about my art.
i have a photoshoot on thursday with a really good friend of mine, perhaps my outlook will change a little.
oh. my dA premium user subscription (given to me by the wonderful is about to run out.
how is everyone? (:
- Listening to: water.
- Drinking: water.